Life of Illusion

"Sometimes I can't help the feeling that I'm
Living a life of illusion
And oh, why can't we let it be
And see through the hole in this wall of confusion
I just can't help the feeling I'm
Living a life of illusion"


This post will be interjected with the rest of that song, but now we shall have updates. The illusion in my life stems from me being right now, heavily into the depths of something that is killing me. Its called mental pain. Fucking ow. Ever feel like you had such a bad head ache that you either A)Flip the top of your head off to release the pressure or B) crush your skull in. Yeah fucking ow. I awoke this morning to nothing but blurs around me, i couldnt focus on anything, i tried staring at myself in the mirror, wooooo that was trippy.


"Pow! Right between the eyes
Oh, how nature loves her little surprises
Wow! It all seems so logical now
It's just one of her better disguises
And it comes with no warning
Nature loves her little surprises
Continual crisis"


Robotics has started up again, we seem to be making progress. Ideas are being pushed around, and the like of everyone saying "what? no... hells no...." "keep an open mind" "oh my mind is open dude, just... alright Mr. OpenMind, lets see your explanation of how to do it!" The game this year requires alot of perfect conditions to pull anything off with scoring and winning, but hey, as every year, it takes alot of perfection and a hells a lot of luck and superior driving skills. Wow... my head is bluring again. I'm gonna stop here and hopefully... try and survive the next couple of minutes before i head off to robotics.


"Hey, don't you know it's a waste of your day
Caught up in endless solutions
That have no meaning, just another hunch
Based upon jumping conclusions
Caught up in endless solutions
Backed up against a wall of confusion
Living a life of illusion"

Somethings in my life never change, constant pressure, constant problems, and never ever a solution. A solution to what? A solution to all. At the moment, the best place i would like to be right now, is surrounded by my true friends on a beach somewhere, or out at sea, or just somewhere tropical. Tropical and nice and cool breeze but not too cold and not too warm. Life however gives you those oppertunities to achieve those few moments of happiness. Just take them when you can, when you can, live them out to the fullest you ever could possibly do, if you dont, you will never feel good.

Keith