Lt. Dan

"Forrest Gump: Lieutenant Dan, what are you doing here?
Lieutenant Daniel Taylor: I'm here to try out my sea legs.
Forrest Gump: But you ain't got no legs, Lieutenant Dan.
Lieutenant Daniel Taylor: [mildly irritated, but understanding] Yes... yes, I know that. You wrote me a letter, you idiot!"


Ah good times.

Robotics is going along quite damn swimingly aint it Lt. Dan? Yeah i would think so. We have been able to get all of our general ideas out there, all of them seem to be coming together quite well. Who knew we would be so ahead of the game in comparasion to last year? Last year this time, we were still thinking of ways to pick up the damned Tetra... and lift it up.... and move around.... and the chasis design.... pretty much the entire thing.

There really isnt much to report though on anything else. I'm just trying to figure out ways to procrastinate from doing my research cards for my Junior Research paper. I have 13 done at the moment and i need 25 by the end of 2nd period tommorow morning. I should be "okay" i suppose. I aswell have to do a current event for SAT Prep. Sigh the life of a high school student is really boring. Though i had an epiffiny earlier this year. Highschool is meant to teach you all of the things that... an educated person needs? I suppose thats their goal, but do they ever acomplish it? No, of course not. I could ask you all about cations and sig figs all i want when your in your 30's but you wouldnt remember or know. Hey do you know who Rommel is? How bout Hephaestus? Nope? You see school is there to teach young people a couple things, and only a few are actually taught. One, learn to obey, obedience, its part of the bible, its part of the 10 commandments, read some George Carlin and you know thats an inflatted list alright. But back to my main point of what high school teaches you about social interaction. Highschool for the majority of us is a brief run through of human interaction. Its an excelerated class of how humans socially interact. Stuck with each other 8 hours a day, have to be there, sooo then... what do we talk about? What do we do with one another? I think your starting to get my drift of what it teaches us. It teaches us the very basic needs of interaction. Though, ive always wanted to test out my wolf-man theory... Don't believe ill ever get the funds for that.

I will leave you with some Mitch Hedberg for he left us way to early.

"I would like to go fishing and catch a fish stick, that would be convienet. I could easily get a job with Mrs. Pauls. If they just put me in a boat with some empty boxes. I will deliver them, to the freezer section, of your neighborhood grocery store. Theres a fishing show on TV, they catch the fish but they let it go. They dont want to eat the fish, but they do want to make it late for something. 'Where were you?' 'I GOT CAUGHT!' 'Bullshit, let me see the inside of your lip!' If fish could scream, the ocean would be loud as shit. You would not want to submerge your head, nothing but fish going 'AH FUCK.... I THOUGHT I LOOKED LIKE THAT ROCK!"

Keith

Life of Illusion

"Sometimes I can't help the feeling that I'm
Living a life of illusion
And oh, why can't we let it be
And see through the hole in this wall of confusion
I just can't help the feeling I'm
Living a life of illusion"


This post will be interjected with the rest of that song, but now we shall have updates. The illusion in my life stems from me being right now, heavily into the depths of something that is killing me. Its called mental pain. Fucking ow. Ever feel like you had such a bad head ache that you either A)Flip the top of your head off to release the pressure or B) crush your skull in. Yeah fucking ow. I awoke this morning to nothing but blurs around me, i couldnt focus on anything, i tried staring at myself in the mirror, wooooo that was trippy.


"Pow! Right between the eyes
Oh, how nature loves her little surprises
Wow! It all seems so logical now
It's just one of her better disguises
And it comes with no warning
Nature loves her little surprises
Continual crisis"


Robotics has started up again, we seem to be making progress. Ideas are being pushed around, and the like of everyone saying "what? no... hells no...." "keep an open mind" "oh my mind is open dude, just... alright Mr. OpenMind, lets see your explanation of how to do it!" The game this year requires alot of perfect conditions to pull anything off with scoring and winning, but hey, as every year, it takes alot of perfection and a hells a lot of luck and superior driving skills. Wow... my head is bluring again. I'm gonna stop here and hopefully... try and survive the next couple of minutes before i head off to robotics.


"Hey, don't you know it's a waste of your day
Caught up in endless solutions
That have no meaning, just another hunch
Based upon jumping conclusions
Caught up in endless solutions
Backed up against a wall of confusion
Living a life of illusion"

Somethings in my life never change, constant pressure, constant problems, and never ever a solution. A solution to what? A solution to all. At the moment, the best place i would like to be right now, is surrounded by my true friends on a beach somewhere, or out at sea, or just somewhere tropical. Tropical and nice and cool breeze but not too cold and not too warm. Life however gives you those oppertunities to achieve those few moments of happiness. Just take them when you can, when you can, live them out to the fullest you ever could possibly do, if you dont, you will never feel good.

Keith

Furia Taurina

Life, is life, why bother some say, why try, the question is not why, but more importantly is the reason behind you ask the question. The why behind the why as it were. It can lead to good thoughts, to bad ones, to ones that fufil and to ones that destroy but remember this when you go into that dark and scary place that lies in each of us when we are forced to take a long look and forced to look at ourselves for what we are, the very essence, the very being, the very "soul" to what we do is only human. Saying is only human is only a way to put into words what everyone experinces and does not realize. When you hear, is only human, you nod your head in agreement, but, why?

I open tonight with some philisophical talk because i feel its needed in this day and age. The age of the future is filled with people who can no more put together "u" and "no" to tell someone a thought. I have learned in my thought that the best place to teach, to learn, to accept is inside the head of every human being. Next time your in thought, look at the people around you, and when you do look in their eyes. Look at the large open sphere's and you can tell that there is something behind them, something more beautiful then anything else in the world. The opposites of one person are expressed and wear them out there, openly for the world, yet most do not see it. Stare into the eyes of a person and you can see the goals, achievements, embarassements, but more importantly, the potential of power. Man is a powerful race, to create or destroy, we are polar opposites and each one of us has the potential to create something magnificant, for the greater good, or the greater evil. What i have learned or at least try to realize that their is beauty in both the good and the bad, learn to love the bad, learn to adore the good. You may say why does he speak of such things, what does he know of these things. The answer i will tell you is that i know nothing, all i know is what i observe and what i come to realize. I realize that there is a way to be happy, you must embrace both sides of your polarity, your good and your bad. It is very zen.


I have always thought that i would not enjoy philisophy, that was until i realized that i myself create conjectures on the happenings of the world.

From here i'll return to my normal self, I say this with a hint of remorse because, i want to be zen. I like having this sense of calm, this sense of being, this sense of enternal life. But here is the message id like to pass on today, i am sure that there are times in almost everyones life, at least weekly, where one can feel calm, sane, level, but more importantly when your in those episodes, you do not realize that your thinking. What does one think about when your mind has nothing to say? Oh well it only dreams, it dreams the way a child would. Dreams. I opened this post with a song title from a man named John Petrucci. And he was once in a band, i do not want to go into the intricicy of music tonight, but i do want to tell you one thing. When you go tonight, go into that soft bed, go into the world of your own. Realize that it is a Dream Theater.

Dreams are attainable, though we feel discouraged and inept to conquering our dreams, they can be attained. Listen to a song, and realize that it fills your entity and you will notice that when you let it fill you, you stop thinking, you begin to dream.

Keith

FIREWALL

"Boom Shika-Boom Shika ba-ka-tu-ka
Boom Shika doo-ba-boom-ba-tacka-chooka
Boom Shika Boom Boom Chika Ba-koom-ta
Shika-ba-ku-ta Brrrr Chika ba-kum-ta
Boom Chica brrr brr brrr chi-koom-pa
Brrr-cha-kum-ta brr-Chica ba-poom-pa
Boom ta-ta boom boom Shi-ka-ti-ka
Rra-ka-kack Rra-ka-tu-ka pa-ka-tu-ka"


Bo sha kah kah? So here we are, half the decade gone, 4 years left, what will it bring? Will it bring me Fame? Fortune? Love? Hate? Lifes been good as the song goes. 16 years of life, what more can i ask for? Life's beeeeeen goooooood. Went to ze new years par-tay last night, sucks i was ushered out at 1:30... but for a good 15 minutes i was the only dude there between 9 females. All in all i had a blast. I found the lounge chair, firmly put my ass in it and proclaimed "I am not moving until 06." I kept my promise. I watched people dance... i watched a light saber smack my foot... and i exclaim to the room that i'm going to get my testicles laminated. Met a cool person, who loves movies, so i was like woah, this is a first, another movifile. I haft been sent pictures from the good times, and damn... i look young for 16, soon to be 17. I can admit it, but thats okay, when im 24, i can hang around the highschool and be like "heeeey there, like the Vette?" And bow chicka wow wow, creepy old guy that bangs all the chicks in high-school. That is my destiny! This is my final year of school.... 2006... and thats it.... one full year left... we're running out of time.... time to do what might i ask? I will say i do not know but its slipping and its slipping quick.

My computer is still running well, a little rough around the edges and being a bit slow, but i assume that has to deal with me using an SATA I drive on a SATA II connection. My video games have never looked better, Day of Defeat: Source is a breeze to play, on 1280x1024, 4x anti-aliasing, and everying on high and it still doesnt skip a beat.

Ive ended my year with a par-tay, a year that was filled of misfortune, pain, physical, emotional, problems, solutions but never lasting, events which were spose to be joyous turned cryptic and toxic. Hopefully 2006 will be an upward climb in my area of living. In the words of Joe Walsh,

"Lucky im sane after all ive been through, everbody say im cool! HE'S COOL, I cant complain but sometimes I still do, lifes been good to me so far!"

Keith